Tiffinnie - The good, the bad, and the avoided?

I've been avoided. I'm BEING avoided.  I know this isn't something that is wrong with me... something I said or did... but I am not liking that out of no where I'm being avoided... if I don't hear from him today, it will be 3 days since I talked to him. I know this doesn't sound like a big deal to some people but we are used to talking all day every day... I like the space but why is it that he's reading my messages and not responding?

Another thing is that he was gone on Valentine's day... out of town for work I guess... and he went out of town all weekend this last weekend... and came back on Sunday night / Monday morning... and then has been avoiding me for the last three days which means uhh I talked to him Monday when he got back and that was pretty much it. He has been making himself sick... he is over worked, stressed, and its driving me absolutely insane! No time to talk to me, no time to breathe or eat or sleep...

What the hell do I do?! I hate feeling like this is my fault. Nothing is going on that he would need to avoid me because of... I mean if he needs a few days "away" from me, then I can accept it easier if he would just TELL ME instead of allowing me to realize that he is avoiding me and not responding to my emails or offline msgs or anything like that... Avoiding talking to someone isn't the best idea if you plan to keep that person happy with your existence... I mean seriously... WTF!

June 14th.

June 14th is when I will finally be in the arms of my boyfriend. It will be our first meeting. The perk though? He's not leaving. He's staying in WA. My mother is buying his ticket in exchange for me not going to Las Vegas with her and my stepdad in October. He will be living with me and my parents. I know, living together right away like this will probably put some stress on the relationship and be awkward and take some adjusting but it will be worth it. I'm only young once. Gotta take risks in life you know? He's going to start college here after a year of living here so that he can get resident rates. He is going to try and find a job within the first 3 months because once he has a job my parents are going to charge him rent. He will have his own room in my parents house. It's right next to my room. Anyways, The ticket is bought. His flight leaves Chicago Midway International Airport at 9:20 AM (7:20 AM my time), lands in Kansas City at 10:45 AM (8:45 AM my time) to change planes. The plane leave Kansas City to head to Seattle at 11:50 AM (9:50 AM my time), and will finally land in Seattle at 1:45 PM. Thankfully the quarter at my school will be done with so I won't have to worry about missing school to pick him up. This is really exciting for me and him. My parents are excited too. His parents? Not so excited. They are gonna fight him to make him stay. But they can't force him. They will try. Oh will they try. But it will fail. Miserably. 

Tiffinnie - To make me feel better.

I got my wisdom teeth pulled and I've been in a really horrible funk of some sort lately but I woke up to this amazingly adorable video msg from the boyfriend. *watches it over and over* I love it. Had to share

Jamie - Promise.

[2/3/2011 7:06:09 PM] Jamie McClure: Those three promises i made? I wont break them. When you arrive here, I will let you hug me as long as you want. and then when you wanna kiss me that can last as long as you want and I will also grab your hand and hold it tight and walk next to you proudly <3
[2/3/2011 7:06:47 PM] ReCrisis: promise? =3
[2/3/2011 7:06:51 PM] Jamie McClure: Yes =3

This might sound really silly to some of you and it sort of is but to me and him that promise means alot. For him, me saying that shows that I truly want him to be my boyfriend and I wouldn't have any other way. Also, this is a big deal for me because I've never been kissed by a guy or hugged by a guy for that matter. It would be both of ours very very first kiss. This is what cheered him up also on Thursday because he thought I was disappointed that he is my boyfriend and I said no, I am proud that he is my boyfriend and I would do those three things to prove to everyone that he's mine and I wouldn't have it any other way <3

Tiffinnie - Balancing Acts.

So I know we haven't been posting much but what is there to say? We are both generally very happy in our relationships and not having issues and don't know what the hell you people want to know or whatever... Ohhhh and we started writing these epic blog posts about how our prom would be if we could go back and re-do it with our current boyfriends and who would be there and everything... but I have to be honest... that was insane. We got carried away and it was like planning a real prom minus calling and paying... We might keep working on that, we might not. Soo... I just have to say, I am a happy girl. Athila is a very very private person and it drives him insane that I am not. He won't admit that it drives him crazy, but I gave him permission to read my personal blog the other day for the first time since we met... his reaction? "WHYYY ARE YOU POSTING CONVERSATIONS!?" (ok not exactly, he is much more proper? when he says things... and its usually worded funny cuz he isn't a native english speaker...) anyways... I told him that I post the conversations that I want to have on hand in my blog because some days I need to read them. I need to know that he thinks I'm beautiful, I need those text messages that literally made me stop breathing and smile like an idiot, I need those trite lines that if I didn't know any better I would think he got from some cheesy romance novel. I need those things on hand right there when I need them. For example... Athila went all... missing? for a few weeks... By missing I mean he wasn't himself. He wore jeans and t-shirts, gym shorts, sandals, played video games, and was weirdly unaffectionate? This doesn't sound like it would be cause for eyebrow raising to most people (minus that last one) but to me it was. Something I loved about his attire was that he wasn't one to ever wear normal clothes. Normal for him is long sleeve button up collared shirts, "social pants" (slacks), the occasional tie, suit jacket, scarf... business man attire. Extremely sexy in my opinion... even though I've complained (jokingly) that he needs to loosen up and wear normal human clothes and stop being such a square. So anyways... Theres also the aversion I have to video game players. I haven't really talked about my ex boyfriend much, but he is a video game addict... so my heart kinda stopped when I heard the video game going while Athila was talking to me... It threw me off and I literally asked him "who are you and what did you do with my boyfriend!" Sooo he said he needed to balance the scales a little and be casual for a while to help his sanity. OH!!! I understand.. You're either an extreme business man, or you're an extreme boy? Why can't he just be normal and balance the two nicely? Happy medium! So after a few weeks of this and a few discussions about how I miss MY boyfriend and that he was an impostor and all this and we even decided that this impostor must be named (we may or may not be very strange people) it looks like he found balance. I now have my loving (more affectionate than prior to this mental breakdown) adoring suit and tie not so engrossed in his game boyfriend! But at the same time I believe he has found that balance between being his business man self and his every day guy self... I love it.

Wait, I got off track there... I post those convo clips and cute things he says to me because when he goes off on those little hiatus deals I miss the sweet loving things, and he doesn't say them much. I write my personal blog FOR ME. I don't mind that others read it, but I don't write it for others, I keep writing it FOR MYSELF. I might be in a horrible mood and need the conversations to make me feel that much better and he won't be online so I look to those to make me smile. If I had to search through the archives to get to them, I would be in an even worse mood. They are there for me.

Oh, mentioning his need for constant privacy, he still hadn't put a relationship status at all on facebook... so, after debating and an argument after he denied my relationship request on there (it wasnt a big deal if he would have just ignored it instead of denied it... cuz then at least it would show up on mine, which is what I wanted, I didn't care if it was on his or not.) and I tweaked the privacy settings on my facebook and found that he can actually accept the request, and hide his relationship status all together from everyone. So after some compromise and trust, he allowed me to accept the request, hide his status, and it may not seem like a big deal but the gesture that he allowed a compromise with me at all is a big deal to me. Baby steps.

This last month has been full of learning and growing. I taught him balance, he taught me confidence. I'll get into that another day. Until then, I'm headed back to the constant conversation going with him to add to the mental list of why this is totally worth it all... all 6,424 miles and unknown wait time.

What is something you learned to do early on in your relationship?

Jamie- Possible Time of Non-Communication?

My mom just lost her job today. Since her employer paid for the internet, its gonna get shut off in a few days. With that being said, that means no Skype with my boyfriend for a long time and there's the uncertainty of whether or not I will have a cellphone. If I don't have a cellphone, then I pretty much have no way to talk to him for a long while. I am seriously dreading this possibility.... I just hope that either I can find a job soon or my mom does...

Tiffinnie - Anniversaries and adorableness

This works out really nicely. Today is my 2 month anniversary with Athila (yes, we are just starting out, officially) and hopefully when he gets home from work he will get on webcam and we can pass out together, beating our record of how many days IN A ROW of falling asleep together on webcam... Today would make it 1 week solid. I swear, watching him sleep makes me fall in love more and more very time.


Athila says:
 u should try to sleep a little
Tiff says:
 no cuz i wont wake
Athila says:
 but even so it's really good to sleep a little
Tiff says:
 i sleep so much!!
Athila says:
 hey, remembered to tell you something
Tiff says:
 hm?
Athila says:
 i love you
Tiff says:
 ^.^
 i love you too



Think I'll sleep for a while in a not so comfortable position and that way I'll wake up and talk for a little bit then go back to sleeeeeeep. yea.

What things catch you off guard and are adorable? When is your anniversary and how long have you been with your significant other?