So I know we haven't been posting much but what is there to say? We are both generally very happy in our relationships and not having issues and don't know what the hell you people want to know or whatever... Ohhhh and we started writing these epic blog posts about how our prom would be if we could go back and re-do it with our current boyfriends and who would be there and everything... but I have to be honest... that was insane. We got carried away and it was like planning a real prom minus calling and paying... We might keep working on that, we might not. Soo... I just have to say, I am a happy girl. Athila is a very very private person and it drives him insane that I am not. He won't admit that it drives him crazy, but I gave him permission to read my personal blog the other day for the first time since we met... his reaction? "WHYYY ARE YOU POSTING CONVERSATIONS!?" (ok not exactly, he is much more proper? when he says things... and its usually worded funny cuz he isn't a native english speaker...) anyways... I told him that I post the conversations that I want to have on hand in my blog because some days I need to read them. I need to know that he thinks I'm beautiful, I need those text messages that literally made me stop breathing and smile like an idiot, I need those trite lines that if I didn't know any better I would think he got from some cheesy romance novel. I need those things on hand right there when I need them. For example... Athila went all... missing? for a few weeks... By missing I mean he wasn't himself. He wore jeans and t-shirts, gym shorts, sandals, played video games, and was weirdly unaffectionate? This doesn't sound like it would be cause for eyebrow raising to most people (minus that last one) but to me it was. Something I loved about his attire was that he wasn't one to ever wear normal clothes. Normal for him is long sleeve button up collared shirts, "social pants" (slacks), the occasional tie, suit jacket, scarf... business man attire. Extremely sexy in my opinion... even though I've complained (jokingly) that he needs to loosen up and wear normal human clothes and stop being such a square. So anyways... Theres also the aversion I have to video game players. I haven't really talked about my ex boyfriend much, but he is a video game addict... so my heart kinda stopped when I heard the video game going while Athila was talking to me... It threw me off and I literally asked him "who are you and what did you do with my boyfriend!" Sooo he said he needed to balance the scales a little and be casual for a while to help his sanity. OH!!! I understand.. You're either an extreme business man, or you're an extreme boy? Why can't he just be normal and balance the two nicely? Happy medium! So after a few weeks of this and a few discussions about how I miss MY boyfriend and that he was an impostor and all this and we even decided that this impostor must be named (we may or may not be very strange people) it looks like he found balance. I now have my loving (more affectionate than prior to this mental breakdown) adoring suit and tie not so engrossed in his game boyfriend! But at the same time I believe he has found that balance between being his business man self and his every day guy self... I love it.
Wait, I got off track there... I post those convo clips and cute things he says to me because when he goes off on those little hiatus deals I miss the sweet loving things, and he doesn't say them much. I write my personal blog FOR ME. I don't mind that others read it, but I don't write it for others, I keep writing it FOR MYSELF. I might be in a horrible mood and need the conversations to make me feel that much better and he won't be online so I look to those to make me smile. If I had to search through the archives to get to them, I would be in an even worse mood. They are there for me.
Oh, mentioning his need for constant privacy, he still hadn't put a relationship status at all on facebook... so, after debating and an argument after he denied my relationship request on there (it wasnt a big deal if he would have just ignored it instead of denied it... cuz then at least it would show up on mine, which is what I wanted, I didn't care if it was on his or not.) and I tweaked the privacy settings on my facebook and found that he can actually accept the request, and hide his relationship status all together from everyone. So after some compromise and trust, he allowed me to accept the request, hide his status, and it may not seem like a big deal but the gesture that he allowed a compromise with me at all is a big deal to me. Baby steps.
This last month has been full of learning and growing. I taught him balance, he taught me confidence. I'll get into that another day. Until then, I'm headed back to the constant conversation going with him to add to the mental list of why this is totally worth it all... all 6,424 miles and unknown wait time.
What is something you learned to do early on in your relationship?
Friday, January 28, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Jamie- Possible Time of Non-Communication?
My mom just lost her job today. Since her employer paid for the internet, its gonna get shut off in a few days. With that being said, that means no Skype with my boyfriend for a long time and there's the uncertainty of whether or not I will have a cellphone. If I don't have a cellphone, then I pretty much have no way to talk to him for a long while. I am seriously dreading this possibility.... I just hope that either I can find a job soon or my mom does...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Tiffinnie - Anniversaries and adorableness
This works out really nicely. Today is my 2 month anniversary with Athila (yes, we are just starting out, officially) and hopefully when he gets home from work he will get on webcam and we can pass out together, beating our record of how many days IN A ROW of falling asleep together on webcam... Today would make it 1 week solid. I swear, watching him sleep makes me fall in love more and more very time.
Athila says:
u should try to sleep a little
Tiff says:
no cuz i wont wake
Athila says:
but even so it's really good to sleep a little
Tiff says:
i sleep so much!!
Athila says:
hey, remembered to tell you something
Tiff says:
hm?
Athila says:
i love you
Tiff says:
^.^
i love you too
Think I'll sleep for a while in a not so comfortable position and that way I'll wake up and talk for a little bit then go back to sleeeeeeep. yea.
What things catch you off guard and are adorable? When is your anniversary and how long have you been with your significant other?
Athila says:
u should try to sleep a little
Tiff says:
no cuz i wont wake
Athila says:
but even so it's really good to sleep a little
Tiff says:
i sleep so much!!
Athila says:
hey, remembered to tell you something
Tiff says:
hm?
Athila says:
i love you
Tiff says:
^.^
i love you too
Think I'll sleep for a while in a not so comfortable position and that way I'll wake up and talk for a little bit then go back to sleeeeeeep. yea.
What things catch you off guard and are adorable? When is your anniversary and how long have you been with your significant other?
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Jamie - The Randomness called my Boyfriend.
So, Me and Carlos have been talking on Skype for little over 3 weeks now and everyday I watch him play Goldeneye. Now this wouldn't be exciting if it weren't for what he does while he plays. First off, as do most gamers when they are in deep with a game, he swears alot but its funny because he will like call a gun a bitch or something if things didnt go the way he wanted him to. He also will -sarcastically- ask me 'OMG WHY DID HE SHOOT ME? That wasn't very nice at all now was it?" or he will start singing random made up tunes while he plays. Another one of my favorites is when he makes high pitched noises when gets over excited about something going on in the game. It's seriously way more entertaining than I am making it sound. One of these days I need to record him when he is doing his random things that he does when he plays video games.
Tiffinnie - The music?
Oh yea...So he listens to music while he sleeps and today I was listening to it because I generally don't mind this music at all and with my ex I was kinda shunned if I ever listened to this kind of music... So... Why is it that I busted up laughing when he was (just not) asleep on cam and I'm listening to the music he is listening to... and all the sudden...
I'm bossy!
NO!!! Now it will never leave my head...
What music does your lover listen to while they sleep that kinda shocks you?
oh yea, here is an epic convo clip that made me laugh so hard I was weak...
Oh the perks of having a boyfriend from another country who isn't a native English speaker... Keeps things interesting
Tiff says:
iloveyou
Athila says:
=D
i love u
Tiff says:
but i may or may not be fergalicious
lmfao jk
Athila says:
what is it ?
Tiff says:
lmao nothing
Athila says:
fergalicious, right ?
Tiff says:
its a song
ya
Athila says:
ok
There it is folks... amusement. That is what makes this so worth 6,424 miles and 9 months, 3 weeks, and 2 days until I'm sure he will be just a drive away... at least for a little bit.
I'm bossy!
NO!!! Now it will never leave my head...
What music does your lover listen to while they sleep that kinda shocks you?
oh yea, here is an epic convo clip that made me laugh so hard I was weak...
Oh the perks of having a boyfriend from another country who isn't a native English speaker... Keeps things interesting
Tiff says:
iloveyou
Athila says:
=D
i love u
Tiff says:
but i may or may not be fergalicious
lmfao jk
Athila says:
what is it ?
Tiff says:
lmao nothing
Athila says:
fergalicious, right ?
Tiff says:
its a song
ya
Athila says:
ok
There it is folks... amusement. That is what makes this so worth 6,424 miles and 9 months, 3 weeks, and 2 days until I'm sure he will be just a drive away... at least for a little bit.
Jamie - Favorite School Year
So I asked my boyfriend the same question that Tiffinie asked her boyfriend. My boyfriend's favorite school year was his junior year but he doesn't know why. Fail.
Anyways, My favorite school year was my junior year as well.. Reason being that I was growing up for a lack of a better word. I was making more friends, learned a lot about myself that year and was slowly coming out of my shell and becoming more responsible. Also junior year was when me and my boyfriend entered that "comfortable" stage in our relationship. Still have as of today haven't met in person which is rather unfortunate but meh we deal.
Anyways, My favorite school year was my junior year as well.. Reason being that I was growing up for a lack of a better word. I was making more friends, learned a lot about myself that year and was slowly coming out of my shell and becoming more responsible. Also junior year was when me and my boyfriend entered that "comfortable" stage in our relationship. Still have as of today haven't met in person which is rather unfortunate but meh we deal.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Tiffinnie - Sophomore and Junior year
When I asked that dear boy what year of school was his favorite we ended up having to narrow things down a bit. He thought I might be talking about specifically just in his university years (being as he is just graduating) so he asked me... I told him we are talking generally out of all the years he has been in school... He picked his second year of highschool... which apparently is different there than it is here. In Brazil they have only three years of highschool whereas in the USA we have four.
His reason for picking his second year is a combo between meeting tons of new people and learning about lust... mind you, he was 10 years old... lust was very real!
anyways thats about all I got out of him with that... and then we started talking about his first love, which is something I would rather save for another day...
And my response was Junior year in highschool. I became much more comfortable in my own skin. I did a lot of growing up and learning and adjusting.
His reason for picking his second year is a combo between meeting tons of new people and learning about lust... mind you, he was 10 years old... lust was very real!
anyways thats about all I got out of him with that... and then we started talking about his first love, which is something I would rather save for another day...
And my response was Junior year in highschool. I became much more comfortable in my own skin. I did a lot of growing up and learning and adjusting.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Jamie - The Beginning
Prequel:
It was my 10th grade year, I was starting High School and my friends from Middle School were drifting away from me. So here I was, in a new environment with pretty much no friends except for one best friend. Being shy, I was having a hard time making new friends and I was becoming depressed. One day around February of 08, I was surfing the internet trying to curb my boredom and distract myself from feeling lonely. I came across a online MMORPG called MapleStory. I created a account and downloaded the game and I created my first character - Jezabella. I quickly befriended people and one boy was particularly nice to me. We became close friends but then he quit the game for some unknown reason. Within the same month of his disappearance I met another boy, Carlos. This is the story of how he became my boyfriend.
2008:
I met him May '08. I was 16 that year. We were in the same guild but I didn't talk to him much since I was shy. He though was very friendly and sociable within the guild and actively participated in the guild activities and was also very helpful and kind. On occasion some of the guild members would do a Party Quest called Monster Carnival. He and I were in this group of party questers within our guild and started talking a lot more and developed a friendship but it wasn't until a mutual friend of ours formally introduced us that we knew each others real names. Months passed by and our friendship grew closer and we started talking to each other on MSN about anything and everything. We soon became best friends. Around winter of that year I felt a slight shift within myself and saw him in a different light but paid no attention to it and from then on forward my feelings would grow.
2009:
Around February of the following year me and him were playing a imagination game of sorts on MSN where I was a witch and I casted a spell on him, which was apparently a love spell. So we pretended to be boyfriend and girlfriend for about an hour due to this "spell". Once we were done pretending, I was kinda bummed because I was having alot of fun and rather enjoyed being his "girlfriend". His reaction was quite different. He was very embarrassed and suddenly shy and said that we shouldn't of done that. I was confused by this and questioned him why and he said because friends don't kiss friends. Even though him saying that bothered me for some reason I agreed but told him that him getting flustered about it was kinda useless since whats done is done. March came and he sent me a pic of himself on his own accord which surprised me since it was unexpected. I looked at the picture a lot without really thinking about it and soon realized that I was attracted to him but I couldn't put a name to the feelings I had that have been developing. Around middle of March, I was having a conversation with one of my online friends who was also friends with Carlos (she was the one who "introduced" us) and out of the blue asked me if I liked Carlos. I played dumb and asked her what she meant (Even though I knew exactly what she meant) and she said "Quit playing dumb, You know exactly what I mean" and reluctantly replied "Yes, I do" and that was the day I admitted my feelings to myself.
The Depression:
So, I just admitted my feelings to myself. That sparked a depression because then I thought "I have these feelings but what if they won't be reciprocated?" I agonized on this one thought for about a good two weeks. Around this time, I got unlimited texting and was texting Carlos alot. One night, he was trying to make me feel better but wasn't succeeding. Out of frustration he said "Aww I would do anything for you Jamie, I just want you to be happy." Little did he know that him saying that gave me a glimmer of hope.
The Confession:
On April 9th I was yet again texting him and he asked why I was depressed so I told him it was because I liked someone but that someone didn't seem to notice my hints. And he said that the boy who had my heart is a lucky boy and I said yes he was. He asked me to describe this boy and so I went to describe him. After my description, he still didn't get that it was him so out of frustration I told him that he's a fool and that he's the boy who has my heart and that I love him. He was quite surprised and said that he loves me too and would be honored to be my boyfriend. We became official on April 11th, 2009.
The Present and The Future :
Despite the distance, we are still going strong and plan on being together for the rest of our lives. This June, He graduates from High School and will be moving to where I live. We plan to get married in a few years and have a family of our own I love him very much. He's my soulmate and I hope to have many happy years with him by my side. I couldn't imagine not being with him <3
It was my 10th grade year, I was starting High School and my friends from Middle School were drifting away from me. So here I was, in a new environment with pretty much no friends except for one best friend. Being shy, I was having a hard time making new friends and I was becoming depressed. One day around February of 08, I was surfing the internet trying to curb my boredom and distract myself from feeling lonely. I came across a online MMORPG called MapleStory. I created a account and downloaded the game and I created my first character - Jezabella. I quickly befriended people and one boy was particularly nice to me. We became close friends but then he quit the game for some unknown reason. Within the same month of his disappearance I met another boy, Carlos. This is the story of how he became my boyfriend.
2008:
I met him May '08. I was 16 that year. We were in the same guild but I didn't talk to him much since I was shy. He though was very friendly and sociable within the guild and actively participated in the guild activities and was also very helpful and kind. On occasion some of the guild members would do a Party Quest called Monster Carnival. He and I were in this group of party questers within our guild and started talking a lot more and developed a friendship but it wasn't until a mutual friend of ours formally introduced us that we knew each others real names. Months passed by and our friendship grew closer and we started talking to each other on MSN about anything and everything. We soon became best friends. Around winter of that year I felt a slight shift within myself and saw him in a different light but paid no attention to it and from then on forward my feelings would grow.
2009:
Around February of the following year me and him were playing a imagination game of sorts on MSN where I was a witch and I casted a spell on him, which was apparently a love spell. So we pretended to be boyfriend and girlfriend for about an hour due to this "spell". Once we were done pretending, I was kinda bummed because I was having alot of fun and rather enjoyed being his "girlfriend". His reaction was quite different. He was very embarrassed and suddenly shy and said that we shouldn't of done that. I was confused by this and questioned him why and he said because friends don't kiss friends. Even though him saying that bothered me for some reason I agreed but told him that him getting flustered about it was kinda useless since whats done is done. March came and he sent me a pic of himself on his own accord which surprised me since it was unexpected. I looked at the picture a lot without really thinking about it and soon realized that I was attracted to him but I couldn't put a name to the feelings I had that have been developing. Around middle of March, I was having a conversation with one of my online friends who was also friends with Carlos (she was the one who "introduced" us) and out of the blue asked me if I liked Carlos. I played dumb and asked her what she meant (Even though I knew exactly what she meant) and she said "Quit playing dumb, You know exactly what I mean" and reluctantly replied "Yes, I do" and that was the day I admitted my feelings to myself.
The Depression:
So, I just admitted my feelings to myself. That sparked a depression because then I thought "I have these feelings but what if they won't be reciprocated?" I agonized on this one thought for about a good two weeks. Around this time, I got unlimited texting and was texting Carlos alot. One night, he was trying to make me feel better but wasn't succeeding. Out of frustration he said "Aww I would do anything for you Jamie, I just want you to be happy." Little did he know that him saying that gave me a glimmer of hope.
The Confession:
On April 9th I was yet again texting him and he asked why I was depressed so I told him it was because I liked someone but that someone didn't seem to notice my hints. And he said that the boy who had my heart is a lucky boy and I said yes he was. He asked me to describe this boy and so I went to describe him. After my description, he still didn't get that it was him so out of frustration I told him that he's a fool and that he's the boy who has my heart and that I love him. He was quite surprised and said that he loves me too and would be honored to be my boyfriend. We became official on April 11th, 2009.
The Present and The Future :
Despite the distance, we are still going strong and plan on being together for the rest of our lives. This June, He graduates from High School and will be moving to where I live. We plan to get married in a few years and have a family of our own I love him very much. He's my soulmate and I hope to have many happy years with him by my side. I couldn't imagine not being with him <3
Tiffinnie - How did I get here?
Oh dear...
How does one explain how one got where one is now? *THINKS* Well first off, this is my fourth long distance relationship...
I was in my first one at 11 years old... I met the boy online, then he came out here with his family to meet me! He lived in Washington. Things didn't pan out (obviously). His name was Andy.
Second one was when I was 12-14... He was my friends brother... We went to church together when I decided to explore religion... He was the bad boy that all the girls wanted and I was lucky to have. The distance wasn't much and we saw each other every other weekend at least... Then he got into drugs and a bunch of other things that were completely insane and we ended up breaking it off. His name was Kenney.
Third one (you think I would have learned by this time...) was with my highschool sweetheart. I was 15 years old... we met at school and a month after we started dating he moved to Washington with his family. I'm really starting to hate WA at this point... Two years in a LDR (Long Distance Relationship) and we closed the distance... Three years and a video game addiction later and we split up. That was back in September 2010. His name was AJ.
Soon after that I ended up in yet another LDR! I met the guy in an omegle chat (unlikely place to meet someone you will eventually fall heals over head for!) while I was still with AJ. We met in late July 2010... The relationship with AJ had been over for months really, I was just waiting to see if things would get better... but in August things got worse... I would speak and get responses like "you're still talking?" and "no one cares." and the day I met number 4 I was on omegle in a webcam chat setting and he saw my reactions to those comments. It was all down hill with AJ from there... I moved out in September 2010... and started falling in love with this amazing foreign boy I met on omegle that night. We talked about things like wanting to move to Canada and buy a loft with green and dark grey walls and learning French and how there was a rule set that said "NO FALLING IN LOVE!"... of course that rule was being broken and after 3 months of talking every single day he admitted it. He fell in love with me. I mean I developed feelings for him shortly after leaving AJ... and then on 11.11 I made a wish... nah thats cheesy... but on 11.11.10 I got up the guts to ask him to commit to being in a relationship with me. I thought I would have tons of convincing to do... but I didn't... I barely got the question out and he was telling me yes. So now here we are... LDR number 4. His name is Athila. He lives in Valinhos, Brazil and I'm madly in love with him. He should be here in about 9 months so we can meet and maybe by then we'll be convinced that he needs to be the one to change my name. We shall see where this takes us, it looks like it is going to be an amazing ride.
From the looks of things, all 6,424 miles and 9+months of waiting for him seems totally worth it.
How does one explain how one got where one is now? *THINKS* Well first off, this is my fourth long distance relationship...
I was in my first one at 11 years old... I met the boy online, then he came out here with his family to meet me! He lived in Washington. Things didn't pan out (obviously). His name was Andy.
Second one was when I was 12-14... He was my friends brother... We went to church together when I decided to explore religion... He was the bad boy that all the girls wanted and I was lucky to have. The distance wasn't much and we saw each other every other weekend at least... Then he got into drugs and a bunch of other things that were completely insane and we ended up breaking it off. His name was Kenney.
Third one (you think I would have learned by this time...) was with my highschool sweetheart. I was 15 years old... we met at school and a month after we started dating he moved to Washington with his family. I'm really starting to hate WA at this point... Two years in a LDR (Long Distance Relationship) and we closed the distance... Three years and a video game addiction later and we split up. That was back in September 2010. His name was AJ.
Soon after that I ended up in yet another LDR! I met the guy in an omegle chat (unlikely place to meet someone you will eventually fall heals over head for!) while I was still with AJ. We met in late July 2010... The relationship with AJ had been over for months really, I was just waiting to see if things would get better... but in August things got worse... I would speak and get responses like "you're still talking?" and "no one cares." and the day I met number 4 I was on omegle in a webcam chat setting and he saw my reactions to those comments. It was all down hill with AJ from there... I moved out in September 2010... and started falling in love with this amazing foreign boy I met on omegle that night. We talked about things like wanting to move to Canada and buy a loft with green and dark grey walls and learning French and how there was a rule set that said "NO FALLING IN LOVE!"... of course that rule was being broken and after 3 months of talking every single day he admitted it. He fell in love with me. I mean I developed feelings for him shortly after leaving AJ... and then on 11.11 I made a wish... nah thats cheesy... but on 11.11.10 I got up the guts to ask him to commit to being in a relationship with me. I thought I would have tons of convincing to do... but I didn't... I barely got the question out and he was telling me yes. So now here we are... LDR number 4. His name is Athila. He lives in Valinhos, Brazil and I'm madly in love with him. He should be here in about 9 months so we can meet and maybe by then we'll be convinced that he needs to be the one to change my name. We shall see where this takes us, it looks like it is going to be an amazing ride.
From the looks of things, all 6,424 miles and 9+months of waiting for him seems totally worth it.
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