Finally : The visit (recap with pictures!)

We spent all of July together and we will see each other again on November 6th for a week... unless he gets one of the jobs he applied for here... in which case he will be moving here soon!!

July 2nd

Thila is watching the UFC fight on pay-per-view and being fascinated by his rental car (ford fusion) and wanted to stand in the road and take pictures of everything (yes, he was trying to do all of this at the same time)... i had to force him back in the house to finish watching the fight. I guess I should let him take the pictures of it all tomorrow. We went out to pizza with Zaida and Justin... that was his first driving experience... Justin explained everything amazingly. He seems to love it here and keeps saying how he doesn't want to go home... its only day 2. 

I swear if the plan was to make him gain weight while he is here, we are already starting off really well... Peanut butter and Jelly (which he had never had before) and 2 hamburgers........ for breakfast...... last night we got a beer and a shot of tequila in him. tonight we got 2 or 3 pieces of pizza and a beer so far (no, I'm not encouraging him to drink beer this much but he keeps calling soda and juice "soap" and says its gross) 

There is a Brasil flag hanging on my bathroom mirror. the top drawer in the bathroom now contains a comb, toothbrush, and sensodyne. his clothes are hanging in my closet. and apparently I'm starting to talk like him. Seriously I've never been so happy or in love in my life. I wish this never had to end.

July 3rd - 4th

We piled in the rental car with my step mom, my dad, and my step brother and headed to Reno/South Lake Tahoe/Fernley
We got there and couldnt find my family's house, so we drove through to Fernley and stayed there for a little bit with my mom and other family members... Then we got tired of waiting around and drove back to Reno and rented a cheap motel. Then we went into the city and took pictures and stuff. Then the next day we got up and drove to South Lake Tahoe for the fireworks. I got to spend 4th of July on the beach of South Lake Tahoe with my love... Then we got to see the fireworks and it was lovely.

July 11th

We went downtown. Old Sacramento is a gorgeous place to take pictures and he is so photogenic when its the right person behind the camera. He is beautiful. Its so easy to breathe with him close to me.

July 14th - 18th

We left for Vegas at almost 11pm, though we should have waited til about 4am to leave because when we got there it was one big waiting game... the entire time... not just waiting for our hotel room... getting pissed off because we cant find the parking garage in our hotel lot. Plus he was frustrated because he didn't understand why we were staying at the Fitzgerald on the first night and then the next night we would be on the strip... then the driving was another frustration entirely... then the lack of communication from the other couple we were with was enough to make both of us pissed off... All in all, Vegas was one big frustrating scene with tons of lights and people and heat. He enjoyed being able to take pictures and be in the crowd, whereas I enjoyed the soft comfy hotel bed... I didn't like the people I didn't like the heat I didn't like anything but being with him and being on that bed (the one in The Imperial Palace)... We gambled a little, he lost, I won it back for him. We went to the Eiffletower replica and watched the water show... we saw a pretty epic show outside of treasure island and ate some awesome food in various places.

July 22nd - 24th

With my dad and step mom and a rental car that gets jaw dropping amazing gas milage, we left for San Fransisco... then we took the 1 to Santa Cruz then jumped up to San Jose... all in 2 days.
SF was interesting... I don't think I've ever been more terrified of the driving before in my life. (even with the boyfriends idea that kissing me so my eyes were closed would be a good idea so i dont see the road or the craziness around us, it didn't work) we drove in a huge lane that was apparently a bike lane... we got lost... and our hotel was behind a gay bar... my dad and meu amante held hands on their way to the store to buy soda or whatever... and they were both drunk... and when they came back, my step mom and I were drunk and then my boyfriend tried to use my dads CPAP mask...
We got up around 9 or 10am and left for Santa Cruz... which we got to and realized that it was hosting a huge marathon, therefore all hotels were full and everything else in the town was too... like the roads... and everything... which I apparently slept through (thank you Dremamine!!)
So we left there and drove to Santa Clara for the night... at the Ramada I think... and it looked like something straight off IKEA showroom floors... and the bed was amazing. Then we went to some cute little bar called Blinky's and they had a few beers and I had a few Jagger bombs.... then we went back, smoked hookah, talked about business with the step mom while my dad slept, and then looked at wedding dresses even though we already talked about it and no we aren't getting married "soon".
Got up the next morning and drove to... San Jose? yea... and ate at... Chillis... across from the Winchester Mystery House... which we toured after eating. That was fun!!! So interesting... though we had a fucking drone for a tour guide and he sounded like a moron and talked like a radio commercial.
Then we left and headed home in the afternoon and got home at night.

The last few days.

We slept more, I cried more, he comforted me more, I cried more. Oh and he shopped more O____O and more and more... which included the purchase of two matching gorgeous custom engraved dogtag necklaces that one tag is a map and on the back of the map it says how many miles apart we are, and the other tag says (mine) his name/(his) my name that we got from Things Remembered.

The last day

We woke up and packed and drove to the airport even though I had cried a lot silently so I wasn't heard or barely seen crying. then we got to the airport and checked the bags and then we sat and waited... and cried... him crying more than me at first... which was shocking because all the men (other than my own dad) that I've ever known have all been afraid to cry... or just dont... I dont know why... but then my dad made us let go and he left. we cried a lot and said he would be here soon. which is fine. thats whats keeping me not as depressed... I know I'm not in this alone.

Today Sucks.

Today really sucks. Today was the day Carlos was supposed to be here but he's not because of his oh so lovely mother. His mother made me cancel the ticket that my mom bought for him back in February because she didn't like the date. So now it's completely up to her when he gets to come out. So I have no idea when he's coming out here, if he's coming out at all. My boyfriend isn't very headstrong so he is scared to stand up to her. -sigh- I just want him here. Is that too much to ask for?

16 days.

In 16 days Carlos will be here... or so I hope. I am going to be so edgy and paranoid because today is when I find out if the countdown continues as normal, have to redo the countdown or cancel the countdown completely. -sigh- I just want to meet him.... I hate all this drama and crap over all of this. :/

Nearing 6 months

I can remember when this first started... the ridiculous speech I had planned out, the days I spent debating on "is this a good idea? will he hurt me? can I trust him?" and various other panicked thoughts... In the end though, I went to ask and without a speech beginning he said yes... so, like a dork, I demanded that I be allowed to give the speech anyways... Basically it consisted of "I know this will be difficult, but I think that if we never try then we will never know and there will always be that "what if" factor looming in our futures when we get angry and upset and whatever wondering how different things would have been had we given this a chance... We deserve a chance...blablablah" and I honestly included the blahs... purely because the seriousness of the conversation made me squirm and uncomfortable and I needed something to balance it out for me. Something that he would understand and yet somehow not be bothered because of. I spent a good hour almost listing the reasons why we needed this and he laughed and took it all in and still reminded me that he said yes before my speech therefore making my speech completely unnecessary. I look back now and I don't think the speech was really for HIM, but more for me... I mean, as I mentioned in previous blogs, this is not my first trip down LDR Way and I had to do more convincing than I thought possible at that time. I was freshly out of a five year relationship and I was completely heals over head for this guy... I couldn't let it pass me by. Gotta do what you gotta do.

Here we are, nearing six months later, and while there have been a few times that I just wanted to scream and cry... never once did I fully want to tell him I couldn't do this, it isn't working, this isn't worth it to me anymore, or anything like that... I never thought it... I never said it... I hope I never do at this point. Granted, he freaked out because things were becoming too realistic and less "oh just some girl I like on another continent" and more "I'm in love with her and hate going a day without talking to her" so he thought this wasn't what he was ready for in this point of his life and his career and whatnot, so he tried to cut it off and jump ship while he still thought he could... turned out he couldn't, four days of trying to convince himself he was fine without me and he was coming back and apologizing profusely... Since then, its been a flood gate opened of "this is me" from him and I stumble a little but I hold my ground, I love him with all my heart.

The first meeting and month long visit will happen in exactly 55 days. TONS of pictures and videos will be pouring into this blog when all of that happens, especially that first meeting video. The idea of his touch leaves me breathless and I'm so excited that he will be here for as long as he will. I just thought I would give an update as to how things are going and where we are and whats going on... there you have it.

Tiffinnie - The good, the bad, and the avoided?

I've been avoided. I'm BEING avoided.  I know this isn't something that is wrong with me... something I said or did... but I am not liking that out of no where I'm being avoided... if I don't hear from him today, it will be 3 days since I talked to him. I know this doesn't sound like a big deal to some people but we are used to talking all day every day... I like the space but why is it that he's reading my messages and not responding?

Another thing is that he was gone on Valentine's day... out of town for work I guess... and he went out of town all weekend this last weekend... and came back on Sunday night / Monday morning... and then has been avoiding me for the last three days which means uhh I talked to him Monday when he got back and that was pretty much it. He has been making himself sick... he is over worked, stressed, and its driving me absolutely insane! No time to talk to me, no time to breathe or eat or sleep...

What the hell do I do?! I hate feeling like this is my fault. Nothing is going on that he would need to avoid me because of... I mean if he needs a few days "away" from me, then I can accept it easier if he would just TELL ME instead of allowing me to realize that he is avoiding me and not responding to my emails or offline msgs or anything like that... Avoiding talking to someone isn't the best idea if you plan to keep that person happy with your existence... I mean seriously... WTF!

June 14th.

June 14th is when I will finally be in the arms of my boyfriend. It will be our first meeting. The perk though? He's not leaving. He's staying in WA. My mother is buying his ticket in exchange for me not going to Las Vegas with her and my stepdad in October. He will be living with me and my parents. I know, living together right away like this will probably put some stress on the relationship and be awkward and take some adjusting but it will be worth it. I'm only young once. Gotta take risks in life you know? He's going to start college here after a year of living here so that he can get resident rates. He is going to try and find a job within the first 3 months because once he has a job my parents are going to charge him rent. He will have his own room in my parents house. It's right next to my room. Anyways, The ticket is bought. His flight leaves Chicago Midway International Airport at 9:20 AM (7:20 AM my time), lands in Kansas City at 10:45 AM (8:45 AM my time) to change planes. The plane leave Kansas City to head to Seattle at 11:50 AM (9:50 AM my time), and will finally land in Seattle at 1:45 PM. Thankfully the quarter at my school will be done with so I won't have to worry about missing school to pick him up. This is really exciting for me and him. My parents are excited too. His parents? Not so excited. They are gonna fight him to make him stay. But they can't force him. They will try. Oh will they try. But it will fail. Miserably. 

Tiffinnie - To make me feel better.

I got my wisdom teeth pulled and I've been in a really horrible funk of some sort lately but I woke up to this amazingly adorable video msg from the boyfriend. *watches it over and over* I love it. Had to share

Jamie - Promise.

[2/3/2011 7:06:09 PM] Jamie McClure: Those three promises i made? I wont break them. When you arrive here, I will let you hug me as long as you want. and then when you wanna kiss me that can last as long as you want and I will also grab your hand and hold it tight and walk next to you proudly <3
[2/3/2011 7:06:47 PM] ReCrisis: promise? =3
[2/3/2011 7:06:51 PM] Jamie McClure: Yes =3

This might sound really silly to some of you and it sort of is but to me and him that promise means alot. For him, me saying that shows that I truly want him to be my boyfriend and I wouldn't have any other way. Also, this is a big deal for me because I've never been kissed by a guy or hugged by a guy for that matter. It would be both of ours very very first kiss. This is what cheered him up also on Thursday because he thought I was disappointed that he is my boyfriend and I said no, I am proud that he is my boyfriend and I would do those three things to prove to everyone that he's mine and I wouldn't have it any other way <3

Tiffinnie - Balancing Acts.

So I know we haven't been posting much but what is there to say? We are both generally very happy in our relationships and not having issues and don't know what the hell you people want to know or whatever... Ohhhh and we started writing these epic blog posts about how our prom would be if we could go back and re-do it with our current boyfriends and who would be there and everything... but I have to be honest... that was insane. We got carried away and it was like planning a real prom minus calling and paying... We might keep working on that, we might not. Soo... I just have to say, I am a happy girl. Athila is a very very private person and it drives him insane that I am not. He won't admit that it drives him crazy, but I gave him permission to read my personal blog the other day for the first time since we met... his reaction? "WHYYY ARE YOU POSTING CONVERSATIONS!?" (ok not exactly, he is much more proper? when he says things... and its usually worded funny cuz he isn't a native english speaker...) anyways... I told him that I post the conversations that I want to have on hand in my blog because some days I need to read them. I need to know that he thinks I'm beautiful, I need those text messages that literally made me stop breathing and smile like an idiot, I need those trite lines that if I didn't know any better I would think he got from some cheesy romance novel. I need those things on hand right there when I need them. For example... Athila went all... missing? for a few weeks... By missing I mean he wasn't himself. He wore jeans and t-shirts, gym shorts, sandals, played video games, and was weirdly unaffectionate? This doesn't sound like it would be cause for eyebrow raising to most people (minus that last one) but to me it was. Something I loved about his attire was that he wasn't one to ever wear normal clothes. Normal for him is long sleeve button up collared shirts, "social pants" (slacks), the occasional tie, suit jacket, scarf... business man attire. Extremely sexy in my opinion... even though I've complained (jokingly) that he needs to loosen up and wear normal human clothes and stop being such a square. So anyways... Theres also the aversion I have to video game players. I haven't really talked about my ex boyfriend much, but he is a video game addict... so my heart kinda stopped when I heard the video game going while Athila was talking to me... It threw me off and I literally asked him "who are you and what did you do with my boyfriend!" Sooo he said he needed to balance the scales a little and be casual for a while to help his sanity. OH!!! I understand.. You're either an extreme business man, or you're an extreme boy? Why can't he just be normal and balance the two nicely? Happy medium! So after a few weeks of this and a few discussions about how I miss MY boyfriend and that he was an impostor and all this and we even decided that this impostor must be named (we may or may not be very strange people) it looks like he found balance. I now have my loving (more affectionate than prior to this mental breakdown) adoring suit and tie not so engrossed in his game boyfriend! But at the same time I believe he has found that balance between being his business man self and his every day guy self... I love it.

Wait, I got off track there... I post those convo clips and cute things he says to me because when he goes off on those little hiatus deals I miss the sweet loving things, and he doesn't say them much. I write my personal blog FOR ME. I don't mind that others read it, but I don't write it for others, I keep writing it FOR MYSELF. I might be in a horrible mood and need the conversations to make me feel that much better and he won't be online so I look to those to make me smile. If I had to search through the archives to get to them, I would be in an even worse mood. They are there for me.

Oh, mentioning his need for constant privacy, he still hadn't put a relationship status at all on facebook... so, after debating and an argument after he denied my relationship request on there (it wasnt a big deal if he would have just ignored it instead of denied it... cuz then at least it would show up on mine, which is what I wanted, I didn't care if it was on his or not.) and I tweaked the privacy settings on my facebook and found that he can actually accept the request, and hide his relationship status all together from everyone. So after some compromise and trust, he allowed me to accept the request, hide his status, and it may not seem like a big deal but the gesture that he allowed a compromise with me at all is a big deal to me. Baby steps.

This last month has been full of learning and growing. I taught him balance, he taught me confidence. I'll get into that another day. Until then, I'm headed back to the constant conversation going with him to add to the mental list of why this is totally worth it all... all 6,424 miles and unknown wait time.

What is something you learned to do early on in your relationship?

Jamie- Possible Time of Non-Communication?

My mom just lost her job today. Since her employer paid for the internet, its gonna get shut off in a few days. With that being said, that means no Skype with my boyfriend for a long time and there's the uncertainty of whether or not I will have a cellphone. If I don't have a cellphone, then I pretty much have no way to talk to him for a long while. I am seriously dreading this possibility.... I just hope that either I can find a job soon or my mom does...

Tiffinnie - Anniversaries and adorableness

This works out really nicely. Today is my 2 month anniversary with Athila (yes, we are just starting out, officially) and hopefully when he gets home from work he will get on webcam and we can pass out together, beating our record of how many days IN A ROW of falling asleep together on webcam... Today would make it 1 week solid. I swear, watching him sleep makes me fall in love more and more very time.


Athila says:
 u should try to sleep a little
Tiff says:
 no cuz i wont wake
Athila says:
 but even so it's really good to sleep a little
Tiff says:
 i sleep so much!!
Athila says:
 hey, remembered to tell you something
Tiff says:
 hm?
Athila says:
 i love you
Tiff says:
 ^.^
 i love you too



Think I'll sleep for a while in a not so comfortable position and that way I'll wake up and talk for a little bit then go back to sleeeeeeep. yea.

What things catch you off guard and are adorable? When is your anniversary and how long have you been with your significant other?

Jamie - The Randomness called my Boyfriend.

So, Me and Carlos have been talking on Skype for little over 3 weeks now and everyday I watch him play Goldeneye. Now this wouldn't be exciting if it weren't for what he does while he plays. First off, as do most gamers when they are in deep with a game, he swears alot but its funny because he will like call a gun a bitch or something if things didnt go the way he wanted him to. He also will -sarcastically- ask me 'OMG WHY DID HE SHOOT ME? That wasn't very nice at all now was it?" or he will start singing random made up tunes while he plays. Another one of my favorites is when he makes high pitched noises when gets over excited about something going on in the game. It's seriously way more entertaining than I am making it sound. One of these days I need to record him when he is doing his random things that he does when he plays video games.

Tiffinnie - The music?

Oh yea...So he listens to music while he sleeps and today I was listening to it because I generally don't mind this music at all and with my ex I was kinda shunned if I ever listened to this kind of music... So... Why is it that I busted up laughing when he was (just not) asleep on cam and I'm listening to the music he is listening to... and all the sudden...
 I'm bossy!
NO!!! Now it will never leave my head...

What music does your lover listen to while they sleep that kinda shocks you?

oh yea, here is an epic convo clip that made me laugh so hard I was weak...
Oh the perks of having a boyfriend from another country who isn't a native English speaker... Keeps things interesting



Tiff says:
 iloveyou
Athila says:
  =D
 i love u
Tiff says:
 but i may or may not be fergalicious
 lmfao jk
Athila says:
 what is it ?
Tiff says:
 lmao nothing
Athila says:
 fergalicious, right ?
Tiff says:
 its a song
 ya
Athila says:
 ok

There it is folks... amusement. That is what makes this so worth 6,424 miles and 9 months, 3 weeks, and 2 days until I'm sure he will be just a drive away... at least for a little bit.

Jamie - Favorite School Year

So I asked my boyfriend the same question that Tiffinie asked her boyfriend. My boyfriend's favorite school year was his junior year but he doesn't know why. Fail.

Anyways, My favorite school year was my junior year as well.. Reason being that I was growing up for a lack of a better word. I was making more friends, learned a lot about myself that year and was slowly coming out of my shell and becoming more responsible. Also junior year was when me and my boyfriend entered that "comfortable" stage in our relationship. Still have as of today haven't met in person which is rather unfortunate but meh we deal.

Tiffinnie - Sophomore and Junior year

When I asked that dear boy what year of school was his favorite we ended up having to narrow things down a bit. He thought I might be talking about specifically just in his university years (being as he is just graduating) so he asked me... I told him we are talking generally out of all the years he has been in school... He picked his second year of highschool... which apparently is different there than it is here. In Brazil they have only three years of highschool whereas in the USA we have four.

His reason for picking his second year is a combo between meeting tons of new people and learning about lust... mind you, he was 10 years old... lust was very real!
anyways thats about all I got out of him with that... and then we started talking about his first love, which is something I would rather save for another day...

And my response was Junior year in highschool. I became much more comfortable in my own skin. I did a lot of growing up and learning and adjusting.

Jamie - The Beginning

Prequel:

It was my 10th grade year, I was starting High School and my friends from Middle School were drifting away from me. So here I was, in a new environment with pretty much no friends except for one best friend. Being shy, I was having a hard time making new friends and I was becoming depressed. One day around February of 08, I was surfing the internet trying to curb my boredom and distract myself from feeling lonely. I came across a online MMORPG called MapleStory. I created a account and downloaded the game and I created my first character - Jezabella. I quickly befriended people and one boy was particularly nice to me. We became close friends but then he quit the game for some unknown reason. Within the same month of his disappearance I met another boy, Carlos. This is the story of how he became my boyfriend.

2008:

I met him May '08. I was 16 that year. We were in the same guild but I didn't talk to him much since I was shy. He though was very friendly and sociable within the guild and actively participated in the guild activities and was also very helpful and kind. On occasion some of the guild members would do a Party Quest called Monster Carnival. He and I were in this group of party questers within our guild and started talking a lot more and developed a friendship but it wasn't until a mutual friend of ours formally introduced us that we knew each others real names. Months passed by and our friendship grew closer and we started talking to each other on MSN about anything and everything. We soon became best friends. Around winter of that year I felt a slight shift within myself and saw him in a different light but paid no attention to it and from then on forward my feelings would grow.

2009:
Around February of the following year me and him were playing a imagination game of sorts on MSN where I was a witch and I casted a spell on him, which was apparently a love spell. So we pretended to be boyfriend and girlfriend for about an hour due to this "spell". Once we were done pretending, I was kinda bummed because I was having alot of fun and rather enjoyed being his "girlfriend". His reaction was quite different. He was very embarrassed and suddenly shy and said that we shouldn't of done that. I was confused by this and questioned him why and he said because friends don't kiss friends. Even though him saying that bothered me for some reason I agreed but told him that him getting flustered about it was kinda useless since whats done is done. March came and he sent me a pic of himself on his own accord which surprised me since it was unexpected. I looked at the picture a lot without really thinking about it and soon realized that I was attracted to him but I couldn't put a name to the feelings I had that have been developing. Around middle of March, I was having a conversation with one of my online friends who was also friends with Carlos (she was the one who "introduced" us) and out of the blue asked me if I liked Carlos. I played dumb and asked her what she meant (Even though I knew exactly what she meant) and she said "Quit playing dumb, You know exactly what I mean" and reluctantly replied "Yes, I do" and that was the day I admitted my feelings to myself.

The Depression:
So, I just admitted my feelings to myself. That sparked a depression because then I thought "I have these feelings but what if they won't be reciprocated?" I agonized on this one thought for about a good two weeks. Around this time, I got unlimited texting and was texting Carlos alot. One night, he was trying to make me feel better but wasn't succeeding. Out of frustration he said "Aww I would do anything for you Jamie, I just want you to be happy." Little did he know that him saying that gave me a glimmer of hope.


The Confession:
On April 9th I was yet again texting him and he asked why I was depressed so I told him it was because I liked someone but that someone didn't seem to notice my hints. And he said that the boy who had my heart is a lucky boy and I said yes he was. He asked me to describe this boy and so I went to describe him. After my description, he still didn't get that it was him so out of frustration I told him that he's a fool and that he's the boy who has my heart and that I love him. He was quite surprised and said that he loves me too and would be honored to be my boyfriend. We became official on April 11th, 2009.

The Present and The Future :

Despite the distance, we are still going strong and plan on being together for the rest of our lives. This June, He graduates from High School and will be moving to where I live. We plan to get married in a few years and have a family of our own I love him very much. He's my soulmate and I hope to have many happy years with him by my side. I couldn't imagine not being with him <3

Tiffinnie - How did I get here?

Oh dear...
How does one explain how one got where one is now? *THINKS* Well first off, this is my fourth long distance relationship...

I was in my first one at 11 years old... I met the boy online, then he came out here with his family to meet me! He lived in Washington. Things didn't pan out (obviously). His name was Andy.
Second one was when I was 12-14... He was my friends brother... We went to church together when I decided to explore religion... He was the bad boy that all the girls wanted and I was lucky to have. The distance wasn't much and we saw each other every other weekend at least... Then he got into drugs and a bunch of other things that were completely insane and we ended up breaking it off. His name was Kenney.
Third one (you think I would have learned by this time...) was with my highschool sweetheart. I was 15 years old... we met at school and a month after we started dating he moved to Washington with his family. I'm really starting to hate WA at this point... Two years in a LDR (Long Distance Relationship) and we closed the distance... Three years and a video game addiction later and we split up. That was back in September 2010. His name was AJ.
Soon after that I ended up in yet another LDR! I met the guy in an omegle chat (unlikely place to meet someone you will eventually fall heals over head for!) while I was still with AJ. We met in late July 2010... The relationship with AJ had been over for months really, I was just waiting to see if things would get better... but in August things got worse... I would speak and get responses like "you're still talking?" and "no one cares." and the day I met number 4 I was on omegle in a webcam chat setting and he saw my reactions to those comments. It was all down hill with AJ from there... I moved out in September 2010... and started falling in love with this amazing foreign boy I met on omegle that night. We talked about things like wanting to move to Canada and buy a loft with green and dark grey walls and learning French and how there was a rule set that said "NO FALLING IN LOVE!"... of course that rule was being broken and after 3 months of talking every single day he admitted it. He fell in love with me. I mean I developed feelings for him shortly after leaving AJ... and then on 11.11 I made a wish... nah thats cheesy... but on 11.11.10 I got up the guts to ask him to commit to being in a relationship with me. I thought I would have tons of convincing to do... but I didn't... I barely got the question out and he was telling me yes. So now here we are... LDR number 4. His name is Athila. He lives in Valinhos, Brazil and I'm madly in love with him. He should be here in about 9 months so we can meet and maybe by then we'll be convinced that he needs to be the one to change my name. We shall see where this takes us, it looks like it is going to be an amazing ride.

From the looks of things, all 6,424 miles and 9+months of waiting for him seems totally worth it.